Resting in Peace.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

I haven't been reading my Bible, I've been pulling all nighters and I've been sleeping all weekend. Last week was horrible...to say the least. I got about 8 hours of sleep in 4 days and when I was awake and not studying, I was dancing or working out. I was exhausted. And I didn't make time for Jesus and so now I was not only physically exhausted, but emotionally and spiritually exhausted too.

When I get tired like this, every single thing that comes up immediately stresses me out. Usually I turn to Jesus or my word or my friends and calm myself down but because I had excluded all of those things from my life, I had nothing to turn to and honestly, I just fell apart. But today I finally read my bible and I finally feel whole again.

7 “But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him.
8 They will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.”
Jeremiah 17:7-8

To say that this verse is exactly what I need is an understatement. It feels as if the Lord gave this verse to Jeremiah in hopes of me reading it today.

I have been unbelievably stressed about Kenya. Raising $5,000 just seems so foreign to me. I'm not sure how it's possible and I've been unsure if God was going to provide. I KNOW. I'm an idiot. But I turn into a completely different person when I'm tired.

This verse hit me hard. What I loved the most about this verse is that it does not say that heat or drought WON'T come, it says that the tree will not fear or worry when those things come.

My trust is in the LORD and my confidence lies with my Savior. He knows me. He loves me. He does not forget about me. My roots are planted within His stream and I will not fear when drought comes because His tree never fails to bear fruit.

So maybe you're like me. Maybe you forget that Jesus loves you sometimes. Maybe you forget that even when you're busy and you're in a bad mood, that He still wants to talk to you and be friends with you. Or maybe worst of all (also like me) you forget that no matter how long you go without talking to Him, that He will still wants to talk to you, just as much.

I have about a month of school left and I want to freak out about papers and tests and assignments and life but I know better. I have a Savior who wants to cover my every single need and while it's good to prioritize my life, worrying does nothing for it. He will give me the strength, He will give me the endurance and He will give me the peace to finish this journey. All I have to do is trust Him.

Sounds easy enough, right? Let's do it. Let's live in peace today, free from worry and doubt and just trust Jesus with this beautiful life that He's given us.

In overwhelming peace today,
Crissy